I've had so many knives stuck into me, when they hand me a flower I can't quite make out what it is. It takes time.
The line comes from one of Bukowski's letters, collected in Screams from the Balcony: Selected Letters 1960–1970 (1993). In those years he worked as a filing clerk at the Los Angeles post office and wrote poems for small magazines; in 1969 the publisher John Martin offered to support him so that he could write full time, and novels such as Post Office (1971) and Factotum (1975) followed. Here, with his usual bluntness, he admits that after so much hurt even kindness takes him a while to recognise.
